I'm waiting...I am waiting for my children to come home after a week with their dad in California. I have missed them tremendously. These days, I wait for them a lot. No longer do I control their actions or destiny. Those days are long gone. At the ages of almost 17 and almost 20, they control their lives. Well, at least the fun aspects of their lives.
Last week I was waiting, too. Waiting for my husband to return from a two week business trip that took him to Bangalore, India and Seoul, South Korea. This year has been a lot of waiting for him to return. His travel has increased triple fold.
At work I wait a lot, too. I am a manager for an IT group for a local university. I am always waiting. Waiting for solutions to ongoing technical issues. Waiting for the workload to subside. Waiting for a promotion or raise. Being that I work for the State, the latter will see me waiting a long time!
Personally, I have been waiting a long time for things. I have been waiting to finish my Bachelors degree in Business. I have been waiting for that epiphany that will set me on my course to lose 50 pounds. I have been waiting for the stress levels to subside. I have been waiting to win the lottery!
I think I am about done with waiting. I think I am ready to take action. There is not much I can do with my children as they become adults and find their place in life. It is true I no longer can direct their movements, but I don't think I should dwell on waiting anymore. I need to let them experience and share their joys and sorrow; but I should not wait. I need to go on with my life. This way, one day I will wake up and realize, "Hey! They are coming home today!". No waiting, just a sudden realization of joy.
I am going to bank my vacation time. Next year, I will focus on attending some of those business trips with my husband. No waiting for him to return. Instead, I will experience new places, cultures, and keep my marriage alive and vibrant. After all, he is my partner, my friend, my lover.
I am graduating with my degree in December 2009. Exactly five months from yesterday I will walk at my graduation ceremony. Twenty six years later than I had hoped for, but so what? I am doing it and I will do it. No more waiting.
And today I start my blog. It is a start to taking action. Action to stop waiting and start doing. So I am doing. I hope that in the subsequent entries, I can reflect on what I am doing and accomplishing. How I am relishing my children's growth into adulthood; how I am discovering the world with my husband; how I am keeping my mind growing and body healthy.
No more waiting...
